bittersweet.

Your my indian summer in the middle of this cold harsh ohio winter.

I wish I could show you just how much I care for you, the way you look at me is something I can't replace.

The way you walk and talk, the way your arms come around me just when I need it. You pull me down so hard and pull me right back up. Your the balace I need in my life. Your quite when I'm loud. Your calm when I'm freaking out. I can't even begin to explain the way I feel about you. It all seems like not enough. Everyword you speak to me just makes my day so much better.


Your this feeling I can't describee.

looking foward.

These months can't move fast enough for me.
I'm ready for spring to be here and april.

Freshman year coming to a close is going to be bitter sweet, its like the begging of the end. I dread the next three years, but then i relize, wait thats it. no more easy.

Then i really start to think, what am I gonna do?

College? Military? Work?

How am I gonna get the money for college? What if I don't pass the OGT? I'm not smart enough for college, I'm barley smart enough to get past freshman classes?

I don't take orders well, so does that mean the military isn't an option? How does the military even work? Don't they pay for school?

Even if I can get a job out of high school, its gonna be a crappy minum wadge job, won't it? What happens when I'm 30 and I have kids and need a good paying job?


I don't know where to start, life is no more than choices anymore. I wish these things could be easier, I wish that I had someone to do all the work for me. I wish I could get over my stubborness.

Where to begin....?